When you feel caught in time it feels like you can’t move. You feel stuck, and you may not know what to do, but to just stare straight ahead. You may feel discouraged, unwilling, and not sure why you exist. The very purposes of your life have no meaning, and so you just wait because that is all you can think of doing.
In case you were wondering, this is a reflection of my childhood, where I often sat on my bed for hours. Feeling numb, unmotivated, and just depressed. My mind was usually empty, my space was quiet, and sometimes I would look outside to see if there was anything happening.
Unfortunately, there are times even as an adult that I feel the pull to return to this empty place. I am not missed, no one notices my absence, and so I just sit and let things happen around me. I may be busy on the outside, but on the inside, I feel numb, defeated, and just alone.
If you have ever felt discouraged or depressed, or even feel like giving up, you know what I mean. Yesterday, I went to a Promise Keepers meeting close to where I live. One of the topics covered during the day was depression, and I was surprised to see how many men were there. So, if you struggle in this area, remember you are not alone, for many other people also feel the same way.
You know how each one of us feels. Our own situation may be different, but we have many feelings in common with one another. Please comfort us when we feel discouraged, ease the pain of our depression, and speak your life into our lives, so that we can know that you care. Come sit with us, talk with us, and be our friend. Thank you, Lord Jesus. Amen.